Q: Its complicated but i hope so i can get some help ….from my age of childhood i was in a habbit from which i was not able to get free and that is quite a bad one i was involved in alot of bad things but then i found a path anyway i helped myself to went away from many of bad things but just one the major one i couldnt pass i failed trying everything and the last option which was  left was marriage oneday i cried to allah alotand asked him to send me a man whom i will marry so that i dont die in my own eyes i wanted to be a good person but due to this habbit i was losing my dignity myself ….anyway after somedays i met a person well offcourse online he messeged me that due to my hijab hes very i terrsted to talk to me ..now let ,me tell i am not religious here at all infact thewrong things look good to me and right until i met him …i talked to him on messege and felt so deeep inside that hes the guy wat impressed me about him was that every time i used to talk to him when the time of prayer was near he used to pray i was soo impressed that he pray five times a day and so i felt bad that am i not a muslim too and i was inspired by him and also started praying and felt the happiness in praying i felt so proud that now if someone willl ask me am i a muslim and i pray ? I will say yes ….in the starting when i talked to him idk when my bad habbit was gone its like it was dissapeard and to me it was clear that allah has semt him for my help and i could feel it ….after praying i came on quran i was a girl to never finished quran but now my first quran is about to finish up  that guy is from algeria and he speaks arabic he told me things about quran and bz he was so loyal to allah and he used to take quran has his friend i also started reading it and i felt a feeling of peace which i never felt before although i am not good in reading arabic but i stil found it so touching now spritually i raising up things which i used to say like boys and girls can be friends wearing such clothes is right , i used to dress like a boy and i never saw anything wrong in them until meeting him ….he wanted to start a relationship but i was little confused as to me compatibility matters alot and he was not the handsome guy whom i imagined but i didnt care of anything ….that guy did istikhara and the answer from allah was so positive and i did too and it was same so i talked to him as i came to know him more and more i couldnt say anything but to cry to allah and thank him that such a good person for me a girl like me and so i went more closer with allah and so that person and believe me it was just like a miracle everything i wanted was in him he was like my copy allah made who admired my strength my ambition ….i am fighter person guns battles and serving humanity especially women are my biggest motives and he just wanted a girl like me he was also praying to allah to give him someone like me and so we both got wat we asked ……my past is something which if anybody will know willl leave me but i had to tell him bz it was very important and so he disnt care it was a hard thing for him but he appreciated me for who i am in present …i once read somewherre quran only reveals his secrets to someone who study it daily and open it daily not to someone who open it once a week…..you can say i was blimd and deaf before alll evil and bad things were infront of me but i never felt them bad …allah taught me and made him a way to teach me … i willl say for myself that i am born again now with everything new ….i was going more loyal with allah so everynow and then i felt so bad that whyy i cant tell my parents the reasons were age well my parents are a nice and gos one but they are too circled by the society so i asked allah help to make my parents think about my marriage …oneday my mom cracked a joke of my marriage and i felt soo happpy allah never left me alone he made things easy for me idk i felt this is right timing so i told my parents that this is a guy whom who i love mom was fine with it and said me just becareful i know you know wat is bad and good …and so my dad came to know about it too i personally told my dad he was laughing and he said you are mad its your age to studt so juststudy i cant give him the full picture that in wat hell i was and so they cant understand how much allah helped me and how much praying and reading quran is a mqgic i just cant tell …..i told him how bz of him i was saved and if i will stay with him tgat for sure that i willl never be away from my allah but anyway my parents didnt response well but they know now that whom i talk …i tried askimg for the marriage but negative there are many things which i have to prove before itto them so that they truly understand wat is our islam …..the guy also told his mom about me and she was so supportive she was an idle mom here …..now the confusion is that he live in algeria and me in pakistan until he grab  his car designing job and earn alot of money and come here to marry me we have to stay still or i earn money and start his bussiness …..we are careful while we talk on skype and we both are quite mature with things …..i am afraid that wat if i be gone in that habbit again  but its alright now i got it over ….i searched and tried asking everybody that wat i should do i talk to him like that or wat but no one really helped i read pages of scholars but no help my case is totally different …us talking to eachother is like a protecting shield we save eachotger from our own selves if anyone can help with somedecision please do wat i should do? Cant marry now bz of complications amd cant leave talking bz its a help together we are removing one by one bad habbit please give your suggestions i will wait patiently and i be really thankful to you

Time: April 7, 2015 at 1:06 AM

A: I am sorry, but i do not know where to start with your question or where to even start with my answer. Please summarize your query and resent. Or kindly call us.

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